Goodbye..

It was a very difficult decision to make. I struggled to find reasons to hold on, but couldn’t think of any other alternatives. Believe me, I hadn’t slept for almost 24hrs now, my eyes are hurting, but I think it is for the better.

All the pain, the frustration, and the hard work. Would I live to regret this? I doubt it. All the time wasted and patience? Was it all worth it? I kept asking myself these questions over and over again. And still, my conscience kept saying that yes, this is definitely for the better.

I’m tired, I want to sleep. I can’t. I have work in 3 hours time, and I can’t take that risk. So here I am, being totally miserable. Still thinking if I should, or shouldn’t. I hate choices, but life unfortunately, is full of them. I can’t burden another with this dilemma. It is mine, and mine alone to make.

I’m still thinking. Gosh, even now I find myself still rationalising the pros and the cons of my decision. Within the last hour, I often find myself simply staring at the keyboard, neither moving nor thinking. It hurts. My mind is a blank.

I have come to a decision. It is time, to say goodbye.

My finger pauses at the delete button, am I willing to sacrifice everything now? No matter, the deed has been done. There is no turning back now.

Goodbye. Oh sweet porn.

Did I scare you? Did I?

Some might be thinking that I’ve gone mad, but seriously. S0me might say that what I’ve done is totally unforgivable, I’m sure I might be able to point out a few whom I know.

Deleting 14GB is not something someone would take lightly. I have made the decision. I only pray that I had made the right one.

Thank you for listening, I hope you all have a pleasant day.